Monday, August 27, 2012

Yellow Butterflies

It was a gorgeous day in September of 2009, Kalen and I  had our first "hang-out/date". We drove around Montgomery, not really knowing what to do, but just wanting to be with each other.

On one back road we found thousands upon thousands of yellow butterflies wisping in and out of the trees and in front of the car. I remember feeling really giddy inside, like it was a magical moment with Kalen and yet another sign of God's sweet beauty around us. We were both amazed on the amount of butterflies around us- we'd never seen so many before!

To this day, every time I see a yellow butterfly, I think of that day and smile. I remember praying the day after I met Kalen for signs from God that he was "the one" for me. God was so faithful to do that. Some may think it's silly that I viewed the butterflies as a sign, but I did. It was the beginning of a BEAUTIFUL journey for Kalen and I.

It's that season again, and the yellow butterflies are out and about. Today I saw about 15 driving around to different places, they seem to say to me "be cheerful". I am so thankful for God's kindness towards me. Whether it be viewing beautiful butterflies or giving me the BEST husband that I could ever ask for, think or imagine... It's ALL God's unmerited kindness. Every flower that blooms, every bird that sings, every butterfly that wisps through the air... everything is filled with God's glory and goodness!

Today I am thankful for yellow butterflies.
I am thankful for my husband.

Friday, August 10, 2012


We must examine the Word of God and examine our hearts. A lot of false "self-promoting" teaching is being preached in "Christian" churches today. We must forsake those teachings and stick to the Word of God which calls us to deny ourselves and follow Jesus.

Lord, let us not be tossed and turned by teachings that tickle our ears and make us feel good about ourselves. Help us understand how depraved and wretched we are apart from you and how much we desperately need you hour by hour, minute by minute. Your word is a lamp unto our feet.....all our good works are filthy rags, we are undone, men and women of unclean lips... give us a brokenness, and desire for more of you and less of us! In Jesus name, Amen.
‎"The children of God all have a cross to bear. A suffering Savior generally has suffering disciples.' ~ J.C. Ryle

"He must increase, but I must decrease"
John 3:30 

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Meet my friend, Landen!

Most of you know that I've been weekly nannying a 13 year old boy named Landen Wilson. He is a sweet and fun blessing in my life from the Lord. He was born with a disability called fragile X. learn more about the disability here.

I began nannying Landen at the end of the spring semester. At first I was nervous because I had never taken care of a "special needs" child, but I felt as if the Lord was preparing my heart because the first time I took care of him I began falling in love with him!

Landen is 13 but has the brain capacity of a 6 year old. He repeats himself a lot and gets really anxious about certain things. When he is told no or is surprised by a situation that he isn't aware of, he has the tendency to  get very upset which is typical of a Fragile X child. I got the privilege to take care of Landen for 2 whole weeks throughout the summer while his parents were out enjoying themselves on vacation. I was so happy to be able to have been there so his sweet parents could take a well needed break!

In the span of those two weeks, I saw ups and downs of Landen's disability. The downs were really scary, but Kalen was there to encourage me to not be fearful, because of course, fear is not from the Lord but from the enemy! I saw God move in MIRACULOUS ways as I struggled with how to deal with Landen's outbursts. The awesome thing is that I learned in a stronger way how to depend on God for what seemed to be the impossible.  God was and is continually so kind to give me wisdom beyond my understanding for every situation!

The ups are what keep me falling more in love with Landen each day. When he is happy, he is the most fun kid to be around! He is so affectionate and will overwhelm me with joy in small ways. He likes to give hugs and kisses on the cheek..... and when I'm leaving, he will bring me my bags, open the door for me and say "Thanks for stopping by!" He will walk me out to my car and open the door for me! He even calls me his "Best friend" and tells me 'Happy Birthday" everyday!!! He is the sweetest 13 year old boy I know.

I am grateful for this boy. I am thankful to Jesus for allowing me the privilege to serve the Wilson family and be apart of this sweet boys life. 

Here are some pictures of us at Chick-fil-A!
Such a sweetie!!!!!!!!!

 Landen's beautiful mom, Jessica Wilson, Landen and me!
It's hard to keep him still to look at the camera so I'm extremely happy!

The reality is, all children have "special needs" because God has made everybody different. We have different needs and struggles, and we're all sinners in need of a Savior. So, what's so "different" about Landen? He is created in the image of God, with a disability that I don't have, but yet he is still able to love and communicate in ways that most people can't! I call Landen a blessing..... for he has encouraged me to depend on God in ways I wouldn't have thought and helped me to be thankful for small things & victories! Boy do I love this boy!


Monday, August 6, 2012

Clean Hands; a Pure Heart

"Who may ascend the mountain of the LORD? Who may stand in His Holy place? The one who has clean hands and a pure heart." - Psalm 24:3-4
      God has rigid requirements for those who want to enjoy intimate fellowship with Him. There is no easy access to God for those with unclean hands or an impure heart. It is an affront to holy God to assume that we can indulge in our sin and blatantly disobey His word, then brazenly enter the holy of holies. In Old Testament times, one's hands represented one's activities. Clean hands symbolized pure activities. Priests washed their hands before serving in the temple to symbolize that only those who were cleansed could worship holy God.
         There are levels of intimacy with God. The moment you become a Christian you begin a relationship with the Lord. However, if you persist in your sin, sin will separate you from God and keep you from enjoying close fellowship with Him. If you follow only God's basic commandments but resist every time God gives you specific, personal directions,  you will never truly experience the depths of God's Person. If, however, you are like the psalmist and understand the holiness of God, you will adjust your life to HIS standards and respond to His prompting so that you may have deeper fellowship with Him.
       The closer you get to holy God, the MORE obvious even your smallest sins become. The more you know of God's character, the more you will realize the need to wash your hands and purify your heart before you can get close to Him.
       Are you willing for the Almighty God to make you ABSOLUTELY pure before Him so that you can enjoy the MAXIMUM possible relationship with Him?

-Experiencing God day by day
by: Henry T. Blackaby

We must examine ourselves before a Holy God. No one can stand without Jesus, but what are our activities? Do we have clean hands? Are we obeying even the smallest commands of our Lord? Search us Oh God... see if there be any grievous way within us... and lead us in the way everlasting.
In Jesus name, Amen.

Worship with me today...
Sit enthroned
By: The School of Worship



Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Every Little Prison Lord.... Deliver Me!

This songs speaks to those beliefs we have in our hearts that we think are okay,
 but truly THEY are prisons!! Listen and be blessed. One of my new favorite songs and a prayer of my heart.