Monday, August 31, 2015

Life as a Momma...

Is about The.grace.of.God.

I'm so thankful for His grace for it is indeed my strength, song and sustenance. 

Going from no kids to 2 under 2 is a challenge, but not one that God cannot handle. 

What's funny is I really used to be confident in my ability to work with kids, not until recently have I sensed whatever good is in me, or whatever ability I thought I possessed on my own,  it indeed was Christ and it never was me anyways. 

It's been a humbling season. Even before we got the kids, God was preparing my heart for relying on His strength, thus stripping me of my perceived strength. Once I got off Instagram(for me, instagram and social media become consuming and idols to my heart), my brain/soul was freed to deal with heart issues I didn't know were there; such as trusting God to maintain, keep and sustain me. I can't explain it, but now more than ever I know If I'm going to make it through this life, and take care of these precious souls well, it will be by His grace and strength alone. That is humbling. I want to find some sort of security in me. Why? I don't know. It's a good feeling to think I'm in control, but God is stripping me and showing me just how I am not. So, it's a good thing, but a hard thing. I'm stripped, raw and bear with 2 precious souls to take care of. Sounds perfect, huh? And yes, it is. Because Jesus put me in this season! So it is perfect!  (I'm still convincing myself of this!) God is faithful and will help my heart understand His ways that are way beyond mine! 

"I hear the Savior say, thy srength indeed is small, child of weakness watch and pray, find in Me thine all in all!" - old hymn 

"MY strength is made perfect in your weakness" - Jesus to Paul 

"We don't need to worry about being weak, we should worry about delusions of strength" - Paul Tripp

So, here's my first official "Momma post" I am weak, but He is strong!!!!! 

Prayer requests: 
A selfless momma
A fearless momma
A "I'm glad to simply rely on Jesus and not myself" momma 
Most importantly, that these babies hearts become secure in Christ and feel His love.

On a funny note: 
On Saturday morning I asked Kalen to put L in some clothes for the day and he came down with her in her swimsuit! This was hilarious, cute and definitely a comic relief! Such a daddy moment! Love this! Thankful for this life God has given us! 

In Christ, 
Lindsey :) 

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Houck... family of FOUR!

The Lord blessed us last Wednesday with 2 separate calls/cases in a day, a newborn baby "M" and A 14 month girl "L"! We turned into a family of 4 overnight!

meet "L" 

My friend Katie caught a smile on Thursday! I think it was her first!

We received L (the 14 month old baby girl) into our home that very late Wednesday night. It was a tough evening for her because she knew something had happened, that she'd been separated from her family so quickly. When she came Wednesday night she was very somber, didn't smile at al, and I could tell was grieving immensely. Because baby boy "M" was in the NICU for a few days, we got a few days for L to warm up to us and adjust. This was a blessing in the sense that L really needed some bonding time with us. She attached to me quickly, but struggled with Kalen and Neila. Over 2 days, she grew more fond of the other members of the family! :) on Friday, we got a call from the caseworker telling us our baby boy was ready to come home! It was now a family outing! 

We hopped (well, now I've realized with kids there is no more "hopping in the car") into the car and headed to Memorial Herman downtown to pick up baby boy. My sweet church family bought this balloon, it's so fun to celebrate this boy as long as the Lord allows us to have him! 

It was a long day of waiting, so Kalen and I had our first date as parents with L at the hospital Cafe! (Yes, day 2 of being a mommy I wanted a Monster, now on day 7 all I want is sleep! 😊😂😳) 
Handsome little man ready to be loved on!! 
And here we are, our new family of 4! My heart❤️❤️❤️ 

After picking up M boy, we decided to drop by home fellowship on the way home to see our sweet church family with our new and doubled family! 
They prayed for us!!!! Such a blessing!!!  
So thankful for such a supportive, Jesus-relying family in Christ! 

When we got home, Kalen and I got some pictures with baby boy! I was so excited that I couldn't sleep... Little did I know the nights of no sleep that were ahead!!! Haha.

So, our family has grown!!! It will be a week tomorrow since we've had L. She is still progressing, adjusting and blooming... Pray for her heart to heal and feel Jesus' love. Little man is doing great- the normal; eating, sleeping, crying, and pooping- while all the while being so adorable.  This momma is busy, changing a lot of diapers, awake the majority of a 24 hr period, adjusting to my radically changed lifestyle and loving it! I'm happy-tired( my new word for this season of life!)  God has been so gracious to fill our home! Though it is harder than I could have ever known, it's worth every minute!!! 😂

Love, Houck family of 4! 


Tuesday, August 11, 2015

He Holds my Heart Forever: a Declaration!

It's been a hard month full of trust and faith tests from my good Lord Jesus. He is loving me, molding me, shaping me and that sometimes can be so painful. But this sweet... Beyond sweet gift just came in the mail and I about cried. 

This note is what JUST what I needed, and only this mystery person knows how God uses red birds(cardinals) to uplift my spirit and remind me of His love for me especially when I feel unlovable or unworthy of love. This is why the body of Christ is so beautiful. This is why it's ok to let your brothers and sisters in Christ know that you're not okay sometimes. Life is hard. We must walk together hand in hand! Perseverence is a community project! Thank you to my mystery person who blessed my socks off tonight. Thank you Jesus for your faithfulness to us and how You yourself walked through the only fire that could burn us. Now we walk through the fires of life with you and won't be burned, we will come out shining! Like gold! Thank you Jesus for the joy and peace that is found in you, and that You promise times of refreshing! Thank You for brothers and sisters in Christ to endure life with! Thank you for you, Lord! 

Declaring I am His and He is mine, and that I am not the one who holds my heart, but Jesus is! So thankful!
Resting in God's covenant faithful love (and so should you dear Bro/sis in Christ),