Sunday, September 27, 2015

For the JOY set before Him...

Jesus endured the cross. He endured death. Not only death, but humiliation
,shame, beatings, mockings, crucifixion... .so that WE may be saved... So that WE may have eternal life, so that WE may know the Father and have the Holy Spirit. 

It was Christ's JOY to lay down His life for me... For us. And how He endured the suffering was the JOY that was set before Him. He had his eyes FIXED! Not on his present circumstances, but on what was to come, our salvation, His glorification, the Father's will... The Fathers GLORY, honor and praise! 

These past few weeks God has revealed to me that I will not find true joy in motherhood without following the in the footsteps of my Savior... Dieing. To. Me. In order to Bless. These. Babies.  

Dieing hurts... Bad. But it is so good at the very same time because it gives birth to beautiful, heavenly things! 

Receiving 2 bundles of blessings is hard work, and I had no idea how taxing motherhood truly was going to be! 

As I sat outside with my Bible and Jesus a couple weeks ago during the kids naps, I asked the Lord why my joy was coming and going. Why lately my joy had left me and I was feeling empty in the very thing I've been praying for for so many years... Motherhood! 

As I was praying, my Bible flipped open (because of the wind) to Hebrews 12. 
Hebrews 12:1-3 yes! That very scripture God was bringing to my heart as I was praying. I needed to read this because Jesus died with joy. I need Jesus' joy in my act of dieing to all I dreamed motherhood to be easy, fun, and always full of joy. But what happens when it's not easy, not fun, when everyone's crying and I feel like I'm about to lose it? I endure by the grace of God with Christ's joy knowing every moment with these kids is an offering to Christ. Though my act of dieing to my perfect thought of motherhood is NOTHING compared to the death Jesus endures, my death can also be glorifying to God if I endure with Joy. 

I'm so thankful for these babies and my heart hurts to see the selfishness and anger in my heart that I have come to realize through motherhood. But the good thing is, I can joyfully die to my selfish desires and follow my Savior by His grace! For the Joy set before me, holding the hand of my Savior... 

My new kitchen reminder! It needs to stick! 

Yours truly, 
The Middle Mom.. Lindsey 

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Smiles all around

M turned 1 month today and I got a smile! ❤️❤️❤️  Thankful for this gift! I needed it especially today. 

We also had fun at the Library today! As usual-  L is smiling! She kept trying to eat the crayons. Oh the fun!  ❤️❤️❤️

I'm reminded by the kids this scripture;
"A joyful heart is good medicine..."
Proverbs 17:22

Seeking a Happy heart in Him, 
Lindsey :) 

Saturday, September 12, 2015

A Day at Huntsville State Park!

Today our dear friends Ashlee and John invited us to go on a hike at Huntsville State Park; we had a blast! 

Ashlee and I were talking about how just last summer we took a picture like this and we didn't have precious bundles wrapped around us! Crazy what can happen in a year. 

L did really great in our "off-terrain" stroller! She even fell asleep, she's the ultimate trail rider! She's a great sleeper. I thank Jesus for that grace everyday. 

The trail was bumpy but our Eddie Bauer jogging stroller took it like a champ! Impressed. 

After our walk, we went out to the dock. It had a beautiful breeze coming off the water so we just hung out there for a little while. 

The view! 
Our little family ❤️
Cute photo. 
Our reflection on the water! 
We spied an alligator on our way out!

It was a beautiful, cool day and I'm so thankful that the Good Lord gave us a good day out with friends! 

The Houcks 

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

The Grace of Thanksgiving

One key I've learned to thrive while being a mommy is being thankful for everything!!!! There are so many things to be thankful for, and if by God's grace, I can notice and lift up a praise of thanksgiving- I sense even more of God's grace to continue on through each task the day brings.  

Some of the things I have been thankful for; 

1. Family & Friends coming over to help me. The first week my dad came over every day to just be a help and support to our quickly changing life! He also got to bond with the babies which was sweet to see! 

He helped me take the kids to their first bio visits! Learning to cart around 2 kids , to 2 different CPS offices in the Houston area is hard and learning to meet all their needs is very challenging, but I'm slowly getting there! Daddyo has been so helpful in the meantime- L loves papa c! 
My mom has spent the night a few times which helps me get better sleep! And we worked on the yard together! 
When she spends the night and takes the night shift for me, I'm able to go running which is so nice (my favorite thing to do), but then I find I'm really tired after and not as rejuvenated as I'd hope (because I'm still super sleep deprived)! But I'm happy for the few minutes of rejuvenation I feel. 

God has been so gracious to provide so many people to come over and help me. I have needed it! 

M meeting Kalen's mom, Nana :) 
Pops and Nana (Kalen's parents) have come over quite a few times to bring dinner which has been such a blessing. We love hanging out with them, and enjoy their company! They love and take care of us so well! 
Pops, nana and L enjoying ice cream! 

My sister came in over the weekend as well with my nieces! That was super sweet for all of them to meet each other! My grandma, aunt came in as well to meet M and L! It was a sweet time. 

My sis Meeting M❤️
We took a family photo while everyone was here, because for now, however long the Lord sees fit- this is our family! And I'm so glad❤️ 

2. New relationships with the neighbors!
Having kids has opened up many doors to conversations and hang outs than I ever would have without kids! Here are some pictures with our neighbors. L is so sweet, loves to give big hugs and smiles to all who come across her path. Your prayers for her have been felt. She is blooming tremendously! 

3. Play dates with friends from church! 
Fun with mrs. Ashlee and Isaac! 
Fun with Mrs. Katie, Claire and Caylee! 
And we love church because all the kids love on Layla and keep her busy! 

4. Those moments when BOTH kids just happen to rest at the same time (even though I plan for it every day!) 
Quiet times look a little different each day, and most days don't happen, yet- when mornings like this happen, and they both sleep in until 8- I get this heavenly time with my Lord. I'm so glad to know He's available to me all day through prayer and His never- leaving presence; time in His word is so valuable and am thankful for the moments where I can just sit with him! 
I am told to nap while they nap in the afternoon and that's what I try to do then. So I am thankful for moments of rest and unhindered time with my Lord! 

5. Our daily routine; 9 a.m. morning walks!! 

Where we live there are BEAUTIFUL walking trails! After everyone is fed in the morning, I put M in my carrier and L in the stroller and we go for an hour long walk. These are pure bliss and a gift from God. Both kids are relaxed and we're all enjoying God's creation together! I also am streaming my worship music or Bible App to renew my spirit! Thankful for the sweet morning moments! 

 "The one who offers thanksgiving as his sacrifice glorifies me;
to one who orders his way rightly
I will show the salvation of God!”
      Psalm 50:23 

Praying that I may be more thankful for the little things... Seeing the benefits of a heart of thanksgiving in the midst of a radically changed life. God is good and showers His goodness constantly even in the midst of hardship and new/ unknown territories! 

Thankful for Jesus most importantly!

Lindsey :) 

Thursday, September 3, 2015

Brag post

My babies!

Praising God for the opportunity to be their momma for however long He allows!