The Beauty of Fostering...
Getting to share Christ's love; the Worthy One!
This process for me has been such a whirlwind! At moments, I questioned my calling... Until yesterday when I met baby M's biological mother.
Jesus put it on my heart to ask my CPS worker if I could meet her after the visit with M at the CPS office yesterday. I knew it HAD to be Jesus because just an hour earlier I was tearing up dropping off what feels like my son to see his mother.
In the hours of waiting for the meeting to be over, I chatted with my sister who was telling me encouraging stories about bio families and foster family relationships! She didn't know that God was speaking through her to tenderize my heart for actually meeting M's biological mother.
As I waited for my CPS worker to respond to my text, my heart started pounding and then I started tearing up AGAIN. Then the text came back from him saying "yes, we're coming out!"
So there I was waiting to meet the mother of what feels like my little baby boy. I didn't know what emotions were going to come... Then I saw her...
And my heart filled with this supernatural love that I cannot really express. It was Jesus! His love... Beating through me to her. She walked up and when our eyes met, we smiled. She reached for my hand and I reached in for a hug! Jesus' love is mighty- and it can breakthrough at any moment. I was not expecting this, but filled with joy that it was there. I told her God bless you, and we were praying for her. She seemed relieved. I was happy. I told her she had a beautiful son and I loved him very much. She told me thank you for taking care of him.
It was a beautiful encounter. It was a heavenly encounter. Jesus is in the business of restoration... And I'm so thankful I can be apart of it, no matter what the outcome. I now have a love for little M, and a special love for his bio mom - all to the glory of God. I am so thankful for the grace of Jesus in all of this.
Thank you for your prayers. I need them as I'm still learning the hard ropes of being a mommy. But so encouraged to see the light of Jesus shine through my weakness...
Amazed by His love,